the last day

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Bahrain

the present is year is about to end in about 22 hours and 37 minutes. another year to look back to. there were good days, and of course there will always be bad. it must always be balanced or else, you're abnormal.


this year, i got to know a part of me better. i knew my weaknesses and strengths. before, i was always asked this same question for a job interview and i would tell the most shallow reasons. but now i know better.

my strength is my family. they keep me going.  i realized that as vain as i am, i'd rather send all my money to my family back home. that's how less spending i am on myself. my reason is, life is short. i have to make the most out of it. but not for myself, but to those people i love and care about. i want them to be happy. making them happy makes me happy.  i want to make them happy hanggang kaya ko.

my weakness would be my emotions. i often let it interfere with my daily activities and even with my socializing. because i am not a pretender. i show what i want to show, but with consideration to others, of course.

this coming year, we cannot promise ourselves to change this, or do that. because we don't have control of our tomorrow. all we can do is really show kindness to others. do what would make you happy today. live well. love much. laugh often. happy new year from bahrain.

christmas day...

Friday, December 26, 2008

food

is sad. sooo sad. and sleepy. kasi may pasok.


last night i wasn't supposed to "celebrate" right? but for jared's sake, (it's his first christmas) nag-videoke kami ni ate! maganda kasi walang kaagaw sa mic, hehe.

she cooked pasta, chicken and made fruit salad for christmas dinner. so i got myself so tired of singing that i don't have time to be so sad.

but today i'm sad. or maybe i'm just sleepy?

the day before the day before christmas...

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

holiday

how do i start?


all i know is that i am sad. coz it's gonna be christmas but i am here. i don't even want to know that it's christmas, except when somebody greets me, which annoys me most of the time. and then my sister will play some christmas songs, i really have to hold back my tears. it's just too difficult.

it's an advantage that they don't celebrate christmas here. means, i don't have to really feel it. except most of the time, it really sinks in. and i'm more than sad.

i really don't want to celebrate. when some friends invite me, i just say i am not in a celebratory mood. it's gonna be superficial if i become happy for the moment. i don't wanna force myslef to be happy. coz i am not.

one happy thought for today is the message i received in my friendster. it made my day. and that jared is starting to grab the ref magnets. that's a first.

28 days before the year ends...

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

holiday

it's almost christmas. i remember my last christmas, it was simply the best. i was so contented with the life i had last year. we had the perfect apartment. not so extravagant, but decent --and always neat (thanks to me)...


one more special thing about it was that we had our first christmas tree! it was small, just 3 feet (i was gonna say tall, but um...) but still a christmas tree, right? complete with santa claus decors, which, if not the trousers, the beards would fall off. cheap stuff, but special. 

i decorated the house in red, literally. red table cloth, red sofa covers... and we had some friends over.

and, YES, I AM BEING NOSTALGIC.

i miss Bicutan.

i want to sit on the sofa
...and watch pirated dvds?

i want to wrap the gifts
...which mostly are for the kids.
...tapos 1 day lang wala nang gifts sa ilalim ng christmas tree!

i want to organize their christmas party
...which i do EVERY YEAR! kahit maubos ang pera ko :( huhu
...i'm sure they will surely miss me on that one haha!

i want to see the footbridge get filled with holiday shoppers
...kahit na mas marami yung matigas ang ulo at mas gusto ko kalsada maglakad!
...kaya tuloy laging traffic sa Bicutan! may takot siguro sa heights?

i want to attend the annual footwashing and communion
...definitely, totally gonna miss it! not by choice.

i want to hear the christmas carols!
i want to see all the fireworks...
i want to see all my friends and family...
i want to go home...