just about to sleep. why so late? i'm wondering too...
there are so many things i wanted to write about, but that's when i'm at my work. and now that i have the chance, nothing is coming out of my mind. maybe also because i'm sleepy... i need rest.
i don't know why i'm sad today. maybe they've noticed, kuya francis called me "emo" when he looked at the rearview mirror of his car and i was keeping my silence back there, on the way home from Seef Mall.
truth is, i really wanted to cry. i just can't find the right time and place. i think its time to admit that this is the lowest point of my life. we all come to that one way or another... and my time has come.
i have so many reasons:
1. i am so far from my home church
2. i don't like the people
3. OP ako kahit saan, kahit sa bahay
4. i miss my bed -- so much
5. i don't like my job... nasasayang na ang training ko! wala na, panis na... and i always strive to get the job that i love. it's very important to me that i am loving my work, i am loving what i am doing. but i'm left with no choice.
6. i don't like my superiors
7. i don't like my place of work
8. i don't understand the people -- plus they're not so happy people, they're war-freak even.
9. i really don't like the people
10. i am always inferior -- which has never -- ever-- happened.
so now comes the big question: how long can i put up with all these? i need the strength. Lord, please give me patience... but if there's one wish that i could be granted, that would be to make the days go fast. fastest there could ever be.
i wanna go to my bed...
