april 20. it’s two thirty a.m. and i just finished watching A Prairie Home Companion. i skipped watching it, for like, hundreds of times because it was so boring, or so i thought.
maybe it was a bit boring at the beginning, but as the show goes, you will find the whole essence of the movie. the whole musical thing is nicely done too, and i started to like Meryl Streep, though i liked her before in her movie Falling in Love. she has a nice voice, and their “band” is truly captivating, if you’re as sentimental as i am. it’s more of contemporary, country, i’m-not-sure-what-it-is. boring, but nicely done.
i cried over one part, when a colleague died. it was so lonely. i think the whole movie was to make people realize that time is of the essence. everything comes to an end. people like the johnson sister’s mom, the old man, and also their radio show. and the movie itself. i almost didn’t want the singing to end, but it has to. like everything else.
i remember telling jade just this afternoon, how lonely the trees seem to sway as the sun’s rays fall on them one sunday afternoon, when usually i’d feel happy and grateful to hear the birds and see the sky, the trees and feel the wind. but it was really different that time. later i found out that lola grant just passed away. the next sunday i didn’t want to look outside.
but then it happened again. but i was in the kitchen this time and i looked outside and felt it again. i saw the loneliness in the swaying of the leaves, in the glitter of the sun. everything seemed lonely. days later, my high school teacher left. it was all so sudden. she got unconscious, they took her to the hospital, she was declared brain dead, the next morning, she’s gone. this is what i get from watching sad movies. finding the significance of it to my life. but quoting from a line in the movie i just watched, forgive the shortcomings. thank them for the love and care. and i suggest you cry. cry a lot.