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Sunday, June 30, 2019

First of all, I’m not pregnant.


This is a very personal and sensitive topic but I still want to share it because it is SO amazing. 

It all started last April 24, 2 days before I was scheduled to go to Manila after almost 2 months of working in Iloilo. I noticed that my period came 4 days ahead (it comes at least a day or 2 ahead or behind, but never 4, so it was really noticeable and that’s why I remembered). 

To cut it short, I went back to Iloilo the week after that, and back to Manila again after a few days, and again- back to Iloilo on May 29th and I still had my period! I knew it wasn’t normal, but I wasn’t alarmed UNTIL I experienced a very heavy bleeding that I only used to see in movies when someone has had a miscarriage. 😂

[This paragraph contains very gross description so you can skip this] I had bled out almost a handful of blood which I can easily compare to dark red jellos because of its color, texture, and thickness.

The following day, my bestie accompanied me to Iloilo Doctor’s Clinic in Robinsons (Google suggested there’d be an OB-Gyn that day!). 

We went in and saw my very first OB in my entire life. She requested for some tests and within te same day, we found out that I had a thick endometrium lining and follicular cyst in my right ovary.

The following day, I went back to see her, this time, in Medical City. She checked the ultrasound result, the CBC result, and my pad (you know!) and was very alarmed at how heavily I bled that she requested me to be admitted immediately for a D&C and biopsy. 

And guess what I did? I refused. I sought a second opinion from my friend’s OB a day after that, just in case she would suggest a different procedure. 

Obviously, I dreaded D&C! My family and friends weren’t too supportive of me though. I was alone in that desire to not have it, and it stressed me too much that I had to give in and agree on having it done. 

Since I didn’t get a go signal from my cardio-pulmonologist (who I think scammed me LOL) already a week after I was advised to have a D&C, and i remembered my OB telling me I might need a blood transfusion because of the amount and length of time I’d been bleeding, plus my mom constantly bagdering me to come home, I booked the soonest flight available and messaged my sister to come pick me up at the airport (to my mom’s relief). 

I got home late Saturday evening, June 15. Early the next morning, I got up early to go to church with my fam. Pastor was surprised to see me in church because my mom kept asking them to pray for me and my pending medical operation in Iloilo. I told him why I decided to come home and after the church service, I approached the altar and asked the elders and Pastor to pray for me, the procedure, as well as the biopsy result. The entire church prayed with us. I went home feeling more confident about the operation. 

The following day (Monday), my mom accompanied me and we were only supposed to go see an OB-Gyne but went straight to ER (I still had the admittance request from my first OB in Iloilo). The ER doctor requested for a repeat CBC, telling me that the Iron supplements I’d been taking all along couldn’t have been enough to sustain and I might need an immediate blood transfusion. 

When the result came out—no surprise, the numbers were low, but thank God, it wasn’t critically low that she then requested for a repeat ultrasound instead and told me that I can go home. 

After 3 days, I had another ultrasound done, and the result had a big difference from the one taken in Iloilo City. My endometrium was thin, the right ovary isn’t too big like last time, although there were progressions with the ovarian cysts. 

By Saturday evening, I WAS NO LONGER BLEEDING. After almost 2 months! I can’t put to words how amazing that was. I was beyond relieved, overwhelmed, and overjoyed!

And the best thing— I went to see the OB-Gyn this Wednesday, and I was told I no longer need a D&C! 😭 I needed the biopsies done though, so I had it done and am just waiting for the results. We’re hoping and praying for a favorable outcome. 

So this post is all for God’s glory. If you haven’t had a very serious medical condition, don’t wait until God shows you how awesome He is before you believe that He is the best Healer in the land.

So I really wanted to share this story because Jesus’ name needs to be declared with all gratefulness, love, and honor. 

I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason. My favorite Bible verse is Ecclesiastes 3:1: “To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven”. Although we’ll never know the reason for all this, I’m sure 98% is for me, and the rest is for the people around me, maybe even for you, who took time to read this very long post!

PS. Please forgive any punctuation, grammar, or spelling misses. Laptop’s in Iloilo and it’s hard to compose and edit using my phone browser.
PPS. Thanks to my mom for constantly praying for me, worrying for me, with matching pa-guilt-trip. My officemates. My friends. Everyone who prayed for me and even pledged their blood donations for me. Leo who visited me. Rutsy who was with me as much as her sched can allow and helped me make a sound decision. Sissums and our love-hate relationship and was very paient with me. 

God bless you all ❤️

First Try & First Review

Sunday, June 09, 2019

beauty

I came across this site, tryandreview.com and saw that they were looking for product testers and reviewers for free. Since I have a very tolerant skin, I signed up for the first product I encountered which was the new Garnier Serum Mask - HYDRA BOMB.

Cool name, huh. The BOMB. The name alone gives a notion that your face will be soaking with extreme hydration. It also reminds me of this drink we used to buy in a BGC Mall: something like Hula-Hula Bomb.

I must say, it is really nice to have these websites that give honest reviews about a product, and that's their goal here, complete honesty, to help consumers make informed buying decisions.

So, this Sunday afternoon, I opened the parcel it came in and read my welcome letter. It's sort of a welcome but the title is really "CONGRATULATIONS".

Here's me with it anyway: (I submitted the same photo to the website, a requirement)


As per the product description, it's a tissue mask that infuses skin with 1 week of serum in 1 mask.

I have a normal skin, so I really don't need that much of the hydration, but again, this was a free product for me to review.

Upon applying the mask on the skin, you need to remove the blue protective film. I find this a hassle. Most skin masks aren't this tedious. LOL.

The eye slits seem to be a bit small for me, so I have to be careful not to let some of the serum get inside my eyes.

After 15 minutes, I removed the mask as instructed and sort of expected an "intensely rehydrated, smoother, and more radiant skin" as per the packaging. It might be because I didn't have a dry skin to begin with, that I didn't notice any difference at all.

What I did notice though was that my skin looked dewy after I put on my liquid foundation. At the end of the day though, that combination of hydration and foundation made my skin feel oily.

So, my point here is: I can't use this product. :D

1. The seemingly small eye slit. Really, it bothers me. A serum CAN irritate any eye, of course.
2. The blue film. I don't get it.
3. The smell. I don't like it, it's a bit too strong for me.
4. It doesn't suit my skin type.

What's good with the product though, is that it doesn't come in too expensive! So I definitely recommend this to those with VERY dry skin. Or if you're heading to the beach or have just been to any low humidity place (oooh- this would work best in Qatar during summer days!).

Disclaimer: 

I'm a BIRD

Sunday, June 09, 2019

Guimaras

You know what birds do? You know, their thing -- relocating, moving, migrating? Yup, that's what I did.

Last February, I have decided to leave Manila and work in (*drum rolls*) ILOILO City.

As soon as I got off work on the 28th of February, which was my last day with that company, I headed to Philippine Airlines ticketing office to redeem my free flight (should blog about that) and I booked for the March 2nd flight without batting an eyelash.

The next day was spent packing and looking for possible jobs and a place to stay in Iloilo. I didn't know anyone in the city aside from distant relatives and my bestfriend who lives in Guimaras— and aside from the fact that I didn't want to bother them, the pretense that I am a strong, independent woman must be consistent, so I had to find my way to my own place all by myself.

When I finally found an available room, I messaged the owner and found out that it was very near to the developing MegaWorld business district, where I plan to spend my next working months and years in. So I told her that I am coming from Manila and that I will check out the place on March 2nd and will move in immediately if I find it to my liking.

And boy, was I ever lucky to find this place. It's just by the outskirt of the business district, and going to the mall and workplace would only take 5 minutes by car, maybe less. It's situated at the end of a road though, so that means I'd have to walk 5 minutes to get on a cab or a jeepney (thank God for taxi-hailing apps!)

I have to tell you, the morning walk is so therapeutic! The sound of the trees and birds, the greetings of my distant neighbors, or even some passers by/street vendors, really gives a calming effect and a sense of peace (of course, until I get to my workplace, which is often toxic —a very usual ambiance in the BPO industry).

In the afternoon, I get to walk the same street and enjoy the many colors of the sky brought about by the sunset. AND AGAIN, it only takes a little less than 10 minutes to get home.

Isn't that just fantastic? Compared to Manila, this is really where I find my peace and calm.

Iloilo is the city of LOVE. And this bird loves it here a whole lot!

Plus, Guimaras is a boat-ride away! *heart-eyes*

Of Emojis and Customer Service

Friday, September 15, 2017

apple

Recently, I've noticed that my "Frequently Used" emoji list consists of one or two emojis that I have never, ever, ever (ever!) used. It has bothered me before, but the recent bouts of security breaches around the world had me Google-ing reasons for such occurrence. There were a couple of forums, but not one of them had definite answers.

So, as silly as my reason was, I contacted Apple through their chat support. It is quite bothersome to have some stuff on your phone especially if you're sure you did not put it there, right? As soon as she asked "how can I help you today?",  I got straight to my question and gave information she might need. I have worked as a CSR before, so I quite know the drill and I know she might have some more customers to assist who have more important issues than mine-- so I added for clarification that no one else uses my phone and my iCloud account isn't linked to other devices aside from my centenarian MacBook.

Her answer: "All emojis are updated" --something like that-- point being, my question really has not been addressed. She then gave me a link to self-help articles, which I thanked her for, sparing her the admonishing lines that I wouldn't be wasting both our times if I'd found the answer there in the first place. I politely said "that's all for now I guess. bye." to which she replied, "it was a pleasure helping you today. enjoy your afternoon!"

So I turned to Twitter -- and found out there are dozens of people asking the same question.
"Why is this on my frequently used?🤖️"
"How did this 🀄️ go here?!"
"I have never used this!🏯
"Is butt-texted a thing?🏺" Some replies said maybe they just accidentally clicked on it. Some suggested resetting their list would clear this list. Some pointed out that this could be an iOS 9 glitch.

As my phone is running on iOS 10.3.3, I'm quite sure that this isn't a glitch. I have been monitoring my list now and so far, there were two that I've accidentally clicked but only once each, yet still, my phone deemed it as "Frequently Used".

I am now also checking if the emoji "suggestions" have anything to do with it, but so far, it has no apparent effect on my list. I'm guessing, and hoping, that this is really just a result of accidental clicks. If anyone has answers, I'd be happy to read on them, please do let me know!

^_^



I returned to my browser to find that she messaged me "Hello? Are you still there?" and then she disconnected, ending our "chat". Um.. didn't we already say our goodbyes, girl? 😂

What A Lazy, Lazy Blogger!

Thursday, May 18, 2017

airline

4 months!!! (--and I said I was gonna blog more this year!) 

What has happened... 
- I went home to the Philippines 
- I got back to Qatar (too much for a list, LOL)

Between those moments, I had a lot to blog about, and yet not one single post. Partly because the internet connection in the Philippines is too bad. (nah-just kidding, it's better now, actually, I am just really lazy!)

So February this year, my little sister turned 18 (just in numbers heehee). I felt sorry that I did not get to be there for her, as I had been for my three cousins when they each celebrated theirs. I am really into organizing parties and events, and I had many plans for my sister's debut. Anyway, I was there "in the spirit" ^_^

I decided to come home a month after. Through Etihad which had one stop-over in Abu Dhabi. At first, of course, I was excited, coz I was gonna see one new place. I posted  TripAdvisor review, please disregard the grammar errors I think I did that half-awake, just the same, here's some more info:


At Hamad International Airport, there was a long line at the check-in counters which made me regret why I forgot to do an online check-in the night before (I made a mental note to ALWAYS check-in online at least 4 hours before the flight as I look at the empty bag-drop counter).

I once forfeited a flight because the plane left... and I was busy reading a book at the airport's upper level --well that's a different story. Anyway, I always made sure I find the boarding gates immediately after check-in, and wait there, no matter how long the delay would be. Luckily, this time, I was not left behind :)

The flight from Doha to Abu Dhabi took only an hour. Just enough for a light snack, and I always loved eating in-flight. I love traveling by air planes. Anyway, I'm getting distracted by the thought of dried fruits and nuts. As soon as the plane started its descend, I looked outside the window to see how Abu Dhabi looks like. At first it was all sea and sand. It was a pretty sight, but I hoped to see buildings. I finally saw one, and it had the Ferrari logo on top, and that was it. That's the largest building I saw from the top, and the rest were like houses and small buildings. I was a bit disappointed, especially when the plane landed. I looked around (tried to look around when the plane was heading to the main airport building), and the tallest building I saw was the airport control tower. (Later on, I found out from a friend that the airport was a bit far away from the city.)


At Abu Dhabi airport, I was surprised to find out that we had to take a shuttle to the main building. This is like one of the domestic flights I had back in Manila, so this is not new to me but it came as a surprise because this was an International flight. Most passengers uttered their disbelief-- they were expecting to pass through a tube. We also got through security gates again, which was again, surprising--we just got off a plane, we went no where between the plane and the airport? So after going around, exploring Abu Dhabi Duty Free, I decided to eat. I got tired and so hungry (I couldn't wait for another set of plane food haha!) I chose this cool-looking cafe (Bricco Café) only to get disappointed with the serving. I paid 32 Dirhams for two small cutlets of chicken and a heap of undercooked rice. It was unjust. It was unfair for my hungry tummy.  

So to cut it short, I boarded the plane to Manila, arrived in the early morning, got a Grab (local transport provider) and got welcomed by our dog, Mimi (yep, no one else but her --on their defense, only my mom knew I was going home and it was really waaay too early!)

I'll write again about the Philippines stay.... when I want to. HAHA. Off to lunch!

FMS Photo-a-day Challenge

Sunday, January 01, 2017

book

For god-knows-how-many years now, I had been trying to complete this 30-day challenge from Chantelle Ellem --it's called FMS Photo-A-Day (details on how to play can be found on her blog). I had once been fortunate enough to complete a whole month, and that was last July 2014 (I remember it 'coz i blogged about it hehe!).


This year, I will --once again, try to accomplish this month's photo-a-day challenge. I'd feel more amazed if I can do more than one month, but let's not push it too far. For now, I'm aiming to complete this month's challenge, and will strive to do next month's.

First day's photo prompt is FAVE COLOUR. First thing that came to my mind was PURPLE, of course. It has been my favorite for a decade now. GREEN is my all-time favorite, whereas PINK is my secret personal favorite. Confused? I'll put it this way, when it comes to my personal things and trinkets, I would always pick purple items. For household items, or furnitures, or anything that involves the HOUSE, I would most likely pick something green (or white). Pink has been a fave, but I replaced it with purple almost immediately. However, in instances purple is not available, then the next pick would be the pink ones. So, pink is still a fave, but it's just our little secret.

I took a pic of my pens using my phone for today's prompt and used the app Snapseed to enhance the photo:


It is now humbly posted on my Instagram. I'm trying to be artistic. Minimal, but still artistic. I'm not sure if I have achieved that with this photo. The back-side of J.K. Rowling's book, Fantastic Beasts And Where To Find Them, seems to have done the photo justice. Or so I want to believe. :) 

Just another New Year post

Sunday, January 01, 2017

holiday

It seems I'm getting the drive to blog when a year is either already ending or just beginning. Maybe because it's a time to reflect on what has transpired over the past year, that I check on my social media accounts to see the new places I've been to, people I've met, and other things or experiences. Then I go check my blog and see it's empty. It makes me sad, but I never seem to find time to just log-in and type away.

The reason why I have time NOW is because I'm all by myself and got nothing important to do. I am in my sister's place in Doha, and they've gone to Dubai for the New Year Celebration and to take the kids to the many theme parks that Dubai holds. So with my phone on my left side, TV remote control on the right, and B&O A1 speaker (my sister's) in front of me playing Katy Perry's "I'm Still Breathing" (aptly so), I decided to give blogging a go.

As it is the first day of the year, what best to blog about than NEW YEAR's resolution? When I was in grade school (--and high school, too, I guess) we had always been asked to write it all on a piece of paper on the very first day of school right after the Christmas break. Who knows what our teachers do to them, maybe memorize it all and laugh behind our backs if we break them.

So before the year ended, I have decided to make a NY resolution:

I read somewhere that we don't need a new year or a new month to set new things to do or achieve. However, most people, such as myself, really tend to have this competitive attitude to be better, do better on a new year, or a new month. Like, sure, I can start learning a new language anytime, but this is more challenging this way. ^_^ Right?

So, bring it on, 2017! 2016 was okay but I know you can do better.

2 years, 5 months, 9 days

Saturday, December 10, 2016

blogging

...that is the amount of time between my last blog post and this one.

The description on the right (about the blogger) is just fitting. Lazy. No one is really ever too busy?! (or so I tell myself!)

So, just like before, I will try to squeeze in some life moments into a single post.

...
...

...actually, I don't think I can. I tried to look into my iPhoto and can't really decide which ones to post. There were so many places, a lot of new people, different kinds of experiences, fun times, and misadventures.

Just the same, that same year -- in November, I got a job in a start-up BPO company, stayed there for almost 2 years (with 3 months off LOL!) and I have to say it was the best days of my "working" life. I might do an entire post on that after this not-so-lengthy make-up post.

I have re-discovered my artistic self (which I will have to do a whole separate blog post about, too!), and traveled to many new places. I'm actually out of the country right now. All of these boring details on the next posts to come. This is just some preppin-up, 'coz I swear by my 7-year-old laptop that I will be a devoted blogger from now on.


Yeah, that's me and my trusty mac. 

"I will never let go, Mac... I'll never let go."

BUCKET LIST

Thursday, July 31, 2014

books

Somewhere along the starts of this year, I decided to write down my own BUCKET LIST. It was my first time to ever do so...

I don't know what got into me.

Here's the list:


And here's the standing so far:

- Travel to an ASIAN country - (x) ...at least not yet!
- Visit 3 local provinces - (x) ...but I've been to Bacolod three times, and Iloilo three times, too, so does that count?? ^_^ No? Okay.
- Learn a musical instrument - (x) ...believe me, I really want to!
- Get braces - (x) ...seems far-fetched! None of my friends or family supports me on this-- they actually strongly believe my crooked teeth looks fine.
- Learn to swim - (x) ...I don't think I ever will. I tried, but I really do not float.
- Watch a sunset - (?) ...I did, once, but I don't wanna count it because I was walking and watching. Not just "watching". Such standards!
- Complete a month of #FMSPhotoADay Challenge -


All hail:


I love July for this! I got to finish a month -- finally! Of course, with a help from my friends, coz I really can't do this by myself. I tend to forget, sometimes intentionally. But I got to finish it this time! I am so happy! ^_^ That's one off my bucket list! (and no plans to do it again...)

And so, for the next months, here are some things that I'm adding to my "to acquire" list:


...may this blog post act as a simple reminder for me to strive to get them all by the end of the year. 
- Angeology (I strongly believe I have Nephilim blood! ^_^)
- Love Story (I know I've read this, but I already forgot how beautiful it was!)
- BookmarkSlashDictionary (because I have to.)
- The Book of Love (because I want to.)
- Clutch Bible --the priciest of them all (but because I NEED to!)

...anyway I still have 5 months to completely tick off everything in my list.

May the odds be ever in my favor :)

P.S. 
I didn't write more. 
My penmanship's still ugly. 
(But only because it can't keep up with my uber fast thinking kuno.)

WHAT??!

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Is it really July 31st?... That's almost 7 months ago from when I last posted?!

I guess my "Compulsive Selective Participation Syndrome" was at it again. In local tongue, they call it katamaran. What a strange condition I have...

^_^

Seriously though, it can't be 7 months ago already?

To make myself believe, I went through my iPhoto and looked back, and it dawned on me... half of the year really has gone by.

Here are some happenings:

JANUARY


- the church leaders had a seminar in Bacolod and I tagged along --with my baby boyfriend, Zif! This is him in the photo. It's my first time to ride a plane with him, and first time to fly PAL as well. Not a bad experience, save for that Korean man who pushed me on the crowded aisle just to get ahead to his seat, as if it's a first-come, first-served basis.


My aunt and uncle from Ontario also came to visit Manila and gave us iPhones. Yep, iPhoneS. 4 in total, and I am using the 4S now (purple--mind you!), but the two other iPhone 5 and one iPhone 4S are still locked. So, we're still looking for a fix for that.

FEBRUARY


My little sis had her JS Prom. I am trying hard not to recall what transpired on MY JS Prom.

And:


Yes, the prodigal returned! I really wanted to get back working and fortunately, a day-shift, e-mail support, pioneer account opened in TELUS! And it was the best account :)

And I met the best people, too. I got to attend the best company events, the Quarterly Rec Event in Enchanted Kingdom, and the Day of Giving in Tondo.


APRIL

On the last week, we went to Bacolod for the Annual General Conference, marking my third time in Bacolod for this year alone. 

MAY

On the 14th, another baby has made its way to our little family...

Meet Andrea Blanche.


cutie-patootie

Just about 4 days after she was born, her father (my youngest brother) and I along with our cousin Czareen went to a mini-vacation in our favorite province (not by choice!) Guimaras!


...captivating as usual.

JUNE

Well, the fun part's over. I had been sick and underwent surgery. 


On June 9th, both my tonsils were removed and so I went under general anesthesia. I blame the G.A. for my memory loss, but I wasn't really very sharp in remembering details pre-surgery. But at least now I got something to put the blame on :). Tonsillectomy. I would never do that again. (Like I can?)

JULY

So there goes more than half of this year. In January, I spent my birthday at home. Met my walking buddies, along with our glorified pedometers in February. Made it to a special person's birthday by plane in March. Managed to get to get to work every day of April. Had a great time in Bacolod and Iloilo in May. Endured the pain and agony of not being able to eat properly for the whole month of June. And lasted the whole of July with just two servings of rice, one of which was really just by accident!

Just a month away and it's the BER months already! And then the year's gonna be over again. Time flies so freakin' fast, don'it?

But for now, I'm just gonna delight that I'm here! Today.

sans the tonsils. 

Hello, 2014!

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

holiday

It's January! It's my birth month! ^_^ and it's 2014!

I am so excited for this year, really. I don't know why. But I am just...

I was actually a bit melancholic last night, just at home, watching Bridget Jones' Diary against the noises around me (being just 2 hours away from New Year's eve!) and I was alone, and only had my laptop and phone as my company...

But I went to the rooftop 5 minutes before 12 and watched the fireworks... Thanking God for all his blessings and grace, and for seeing us through 2013, and for letting us see 2014... And after that, I was fine already... I felt confident about this year. And seriously excited.

I suddenly want to do so many things.

One is, as inspired by the movie, I am gonna be hopeful in keeping a Diary this year, or a Journal which I hope to bring with me all the time. I want the conventional one, not a mobile application, as there's a bit disadvantage to that in case the phone gets broken, or missing.

I will also strive to be cautious in what I eat, and try to do that, really. The real challenge is that, today, being the first day when I am supposed to be on diet-watch, there are left-overs that I will feel sorry for once they get spoiled :( I feel bad already.

I also will have a BUCKET LIST. First time in my life, and I am up to the challenge of fulfilling whatever I will think of putting in there this 2014...

And I will also TRY MY BEST in doing the FMS Photo A Day Challenge. I tried so hard last year and I only had 10 photos in a month, at the most.

But now, see...


I made it my desktop wallpaper. I am that eager to accomplish that thing! 

And the challenge was brought upon me as soon as I read it. Coz by the time I have checked the list, I had already skipped DAY 1's. I woke up at 1 P.M. :( 

But then, I can still make up for it tomorrow! :) 

--AND I WILL!

Yey, I will. ^_^

GOODBYE, 2013!

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

death

Maybe it was coz of my Facebook post before I slept last night that I dreamed of these two precious people, in their old bedroom, ready to get to sleep...

So, I had to leave the room so they can rest, and I gave them each a peck on their cheeks (which was unusual) and said goodbye, and they also said their goodbyes to me... (Tatay even waved...)

I am thankful that I was able to see them again... but sad coz I terribly miss them... 



I will be facing the coming years with inspiration from them, from their love. I have no regrets when I look back to the times I spent with them...

I am actually grateful for Cebu Pacific Air (plugging?!) for I was able to treat them to all-expense vacation to their homeland, Guimaras, --TWICE, thanks to their affordable promos. Then they'd both ask when will the next promo be, so we can all go again. If Cebu Pacific Air can read my post, my Lola was really very proud that our airline tickets were cheaper than the tax we paid at the airport, that she went bragging it to everyone she got to talk to back in Guimaras and here in Manila...

I really thank God that they were given to us to be our grandparents, our Mamang and Tatay...

I am blessed because of them... 

Goodbye, Mamang and Tatay... until we meet again!

I MISS HIM TODAY.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

grannies

He has always been one of my kakampi sa lahat ng bagay. Especially when it involves my grandmother.

He has always understood. Always thoughtful. Always caring...

He was always giving. I really won't ever forget his gesture when he tried to give me his most memorable P100 bill just so I can do my follow-up interview.

He never failed to take care of my grandmother and everyone, even when his body was failing him...

He loved my grandmother so much.

He always tried to be strong.

He tried to go to church even if he has to walk with crutches, and even when his knees hurt with all the sitting and standing inside the church.

He loved God and His words.

Though I miss him so much, I know he's in a better place now, I can't complain.

BABY NAMES 101

Sunday, September 15, 2013

babies

You know you're old when the baby you named years ago, is now asking you to name her very own baby!

And I had this thought, just a couple of days ago, about names and the naming game, when I read a very pretty name. I instantly visualized a fine lady... only to find out a little later that this name belongs to a girl who tries to reject her womanhood!

So, someday, when she embraces the bob-cut or boy-cut and every manly thing she can acquire for herself, she would be stuck with her name, Princess Cinderella. (I made up the name, of course...)

So, I thought of names that could be suitable, even when the little Junior decides to be Miss Talipapa in the future...

For example: Alex, Charlie, Drew... and lots more. There are, of course, many websites that offer a list nowadays, unlike in the olden days when they just give whatever name that pops out of their head when asked.

You can also try to flip open a dictionary and get from the words there like Justice and stuff. Just be careful not to use names that are being used for our domesticated furry friends =( please?

After all, you were given at least 9 months to give a proper name, don't just rely on what storm is raging or whatever political event that's currently on the news to base your child's name after.

Also, keep in mind that they'll become grandparents too, and won't it be too awkward to call on Grandma Sassy?

The BOOKWORM in Me!

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

books

I really wanted to find this book by Michael Stein so I spent hours in bookstores just to search for it. Well, actually, on the second bookstore lang, as they claimed to not have a database of all their books...

While I was on the first bookstore, (the famous one) I saw this paperback copy of Memoirs of a Geisha... I checked the price and it was sold for P499.00! I bought my copy from a book sale and it was hard bound, only for P49.00! I seriously, silently, promised myself not to buy books from that bookstore again... (except of course Michael Stein's if they ever get a copy!) Not that I have incorporated a resentment against them, but just, if I can get a book 90% off of it, then why buy the pricey-paperback one, right? It has the same content anyway, I'm sure. 

So, I headed to the other bookstore at that mall, and in lieu of the book I was originally looking for, I (once again) bought Danielle Steele books which my mom adores, and some books I wanted to read. This book store is on sale almost everyday, and they have a wide selection for a tiny space, but they really have no record of all their books! I wanted to volunteer to do it only if I'm certain I'm to find In the Age of Love I was desperately searching for!

These three books are my latest finds, Memoirs is just for show-off:

...and believe it or not, I bought those three for less than P150.00!

I've really wanted to read The Hobbit, I have it on my e-books lib, but my eyes often surrender to the bright light while reading e-books!

But then again...

F.Y.I. the books with no check marks beside it on my Reading List have been tsundoku-ed. ^_^

But I DO love LOVE ❤

Friday, August 16, 2013

love

Have you ever been in love
Horrible isn't it? 
It makes you so vulnerable. 
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart 
and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. 
You build up all these defenses. 
You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, 
then one stupid person, 
no different from any other stupid person, 
wanders into your stupid life... 
You give them a piece of you. 
They didn't ask for it. 
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, 
and then your life isn't your own anymore.
 Love takes hostages. 
It gets inside you. 
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, 
so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' 
or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. 
It hurts. 
Not just in the imagination
Not just in the mind. 
It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, 
a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. 
Nothing should be able to do that. 
Especially not love. 
I hate love.


If dreams come true...

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

dreams

Last week I had a dream, we were eating in a restaurant somewhere in Alabang raw. The crews were busy taking off used plates and everything else from our table, when the owner herself went to our table and started helping with the clean-up.

She looked up to us, and said, "Pwede bang bilisan nyo dahil maglilinis pa kami?" And I realized she looked exactly like Sister Emillie. So I flippantly told everyone on the table. "Oy, bilisan nyo raw!" and laughed. And serious as she was, she laughed with me too!

And when we all stood up, and I was still nibbling on a chocolate chip cookie, I asked her who made them as they were delicious. She said "Ako!" with a smile. So I exclaimed, "Nagbe-bake ka rin??" to which she just smiled.

The lady was about to go down the stairs (to their kitchen I think) when I told everyone how she resembles Sister Emillie. And everyone suddenly cried out, "Oo nga!" and "Kaya pala she looked familiar..."

I was really glad to have found someone who resembles her in so many ways, who looks exactly like her, (but of course in my dream it was her --even sounded like her!) And before my company and I left, she hugged me and whispered to me, "Hayaan mo, kahit kailan, hindi na kita paiiyakin..."

(Maybe because that day I missed her so much and cried like I did on the day she died.)

I wanted to stay where she was, but we had to go. So I told myself that I would always come visit her and get to know her, and love her as if she were my momster...

God, I really hope she exists!

FORGIVE THE INVECTIVE

Friday, August 09, 2013

hotel

Time check: 4:50 A.M.
Sleep time: ZILCH.

Care to know why?

Right now, my laptop's volume is turned to the highest level, and yet, the words are being drowned by the air conditioner's sound. Oh, no -- let me rephrase:

...the words are being drowned by the air conditioner's NOISE.

Imagine yourself in a propeller jet. The sound is like that, only --you are seated outside the plane.
Or you are very near or in front of a fan. A. Big. Industrial. Fan.

And here's the best deal, this is the SUITE ROOM. I actually upped myself because the price difference between the EXECUTIVE  and the SUITE ROOM is so small. A cab fare will be more expensive from any SM to any other nearest SM.

Anyway, I called the receptionist and asked if I can be transferred, even if I had to be downgraded to the single standard ones (for I really want to sleep!) but was told there was none available right now.

So, here I am, awake and wanting to write a note-to-self and a friendly advice:

  • The water smells like just a bit too much of red corpuscles. 
  • The TV has less than 10 channels. (cable pa, partida!)
  • No TV remote.
  • Sheets are stained.
  • The fixtures are worn.
  • The loo is not at its natural color.
  • The bathroom is an oxymoron. (The dark light.)

I am very attentive to hotel (or pension houses, inns, hostels, what-have-you's) reviews before checking in, and I know I have read some reviews about this one, but forgot, thanks to my reliable slate, and a last-minute change of decision.

Here's a good deal here though, they approve of late check-out  til 3PM! (but with a P50.00/hour rate!) The last two other hotels I've stayed in only gives 'til 1 PM with no extra charge... ^_^

Whoever invented the phrase "Change is good" must really try this hotel for a rude awakening.

Wrinkled, Wrinkled Little Star!

Friday, August 02, 2013

happy


This has been a treat!

I have found a site to watch Meryl Streep and movies, and with the help of temporary files folder, I was able to save the video on my mac! I've always thought caches were useless ^_^



So, so far, I have seen Death Becomes Her, which was a laugh treat for most parts. Next I watched Prime co-starring Uma Thurman, and last and latest, The Prairie Home Companion, which I've already seen, but watched again for the heck of it.

And now I have to get moving to work on something!!! I want to watch Falling In Love next! It's Friday, it's Friday!!!

Mid-week Crisis =)

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

coffee

I woke up with a throbbing headache. and realized it was already 10 A.M. I don't know if my headache was caused by sleeping too much or less.

So I got up to make myself some coffee, and since the rain was pouring hard, all plans of going out to my grandmother's was mentally crossed-out. I transferred some pillows to the living room, brought my blanket with me and snuggled comfortably as I put on the Barbra Streisand 1994 concert on DVD.

The preparations were shown first, and then some people were interviewed, and their enthusiasm was just contagious, I felt the excitement in me to see Barbra grew.

And when she finally walked on stage, with the accompaniment of "The Way We Were" being played by the orchestra, I wanted to cry! She was really quite a vision...

So I just stayed there, laughing with her, smiling as she sang familiar songs. I suddenly found myself hugging the DVD cover.

I was giggling as she told her story when she first fell in love with Marlon Brando! I am that mababaw...

I wish I have more movies though, coz I've seen all I have, some more than twice. I'm starting to read a book to kill boredom! And that's really saying something...