EARLY BIRD...

Monday, December 06, 2010

christmas

woke up 5 am with a headache. (which reminds me... i need to get Panadol, i'm just too lazy to get up...)


i'm listening to Christmas songs while the Christmas lights are on, this is how I remind myself that it IS almost christmas.

i like Christmas, but there is always something sad about it. happy and sad, as always. exciting coz it's the time of gift-giving and seeing people we know. (or knew) and i never have figured out what's sad on that.

maybe... (it just occured now) maybe... because i never experienced having christmas with my family. meaning, my mother and father together with my sibs. yeah, maybe that's why...

and so i'm offering the simple phrase... (background music)

but i love organizing children's christmas party. i like seeing them happy and the fact that they don't have to go to my house come christmas day to ask for gift or anything since i have distributed them already, equally. :D well, there is more to those who won.

i just want to make a blog note of one client, by the way... she's keeping her son's account with us, not changing anything, saying she's willing to pay for the plan as long as she lives, just to be able to hear her son's voice mail greeting, as he has already passed away. sad but really touching.

that's all for now i guess... time to get the medicine. i am planning to watch movies all day.

IF... ;)

blogging @ 4.37 AM.

Thursday, November 04, 2010

...and not working, mind you.


i'm usually at the office this time, trying hard not to sleep on clients. my mind often dozes off though my eyes are wide open, and it's really embarrassing sometimes telling stuff to people that i, myself, can't even understand.

"yes, this feature is for your US roaming calling..."
then snaps me to "WHAT??!!"-FACE that gets my client asking, "i'm sorry, what was that?"

cute job, eh?
teehee.

and not to mention mentally challenging. (o ayan, naghahanap ka ng challenging before ha)
some clients would call and tell you right off "YOU have charged me for something I didn't use, YOU are clearly ripping my money off, YOU have done this before and I have told YOU I didn't want this!"

...and i would love --soooo love-- to tell them "HI, I just started five months ago, honestly, I haven't encountered YOU yet" *BIG grin*

(facebook chat buzzes with colleague asking to go out for breakfast -- i haven't even slept yet?)

so, i must sleep. sleep all day.

i killed a chicken.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

coffee


last Tuesday in Guimaras, I was having breakfast by myself (grannies went to visit some relatives --dead and alive) and was waiting for my brother who went out to buy me coffee from the not-so-nearby store, when it rained.
so it took a while for my brother to come back, and i was already itching for my dose of coffee when i noticed this chicken wandering about by the kitchen. i tried to ignore it but because i had nothing to do, having eaten my bf and just anxiously waiting for my coffee, i shooed it off. it then flew to my grannies make-shift bedroom just between living room and kitchen... so i followed it and tried to shoo it again, and it flew off again to the counter this time, and it irked me thinking it would spread some of its germs on the spoons and forks and all other uncovered utensils so I got my grandma's cane and tapped it to the kitchen counter hoping it would scare the chicken! but the chicken just ran around the counter and so i hit it by reflex... and noticed it was bleeding by the nose :)
it then quivered and tried to fly ON MY DIRECTION which scared me so i ran to the living room calling my younger cousin who was playing PLANTS vs. ZOMBIES!
when we got there, it was lying lifeless on the floor...poor chicken. i couldn't count the times i said "I'M SORRY". and i think i was saying sorry to the chicken and its unknown owner... oh my god i am a murderer.


so my grandma decided to cook it ^_^

just updating.

Friday, September 17, 2010

school

currently watching I LOVE YOU BETH COOPER...


so, i am nostalgic of:
  • high school days
  • crushes ^_^
  • the good old deis :)

mamma mia!

Monday, August 16, 2010

blogging

that's what's on again...


i could watch Mamma Mia! all day. everyday. it has songs and Meryl Streep (and Pierce Brosnan dancing at the end)

*****

finally got the time to blog. i miss blogging. i have a lot of blog notes on my phone, i just don't feel like writing it down when i'm online...

anyways, been busy with life. living each day just to get through it. really hate routines.

i really want to change my blog skin. i'm just too lazy lately.

1235

Sunday, July 04, 2010

airplane

that was the number of visits my dark and twisty blog has got... had i checked a little sooner i would have been too happy for myself for being the 1234th.


so anyway, it surprised me that at least 1234 times, some people got this feeling of boredom which made them just click on some links. like mine. :)

flight ticket at P2.60... unbelievable right? but i got them :) special thanks to my sister, who's ever a spoiler. (will tell more come october)

i have a crush... (*kilig*) but i am of course, as ever, in control of my emotions so after 2 weeks or so (sometimes even less), wala na naman yun. hehe. so as of now, i love listening to the song "we could be in love" because the singers sounds like they're soo in love. and i'll just be contented listening. meaning: i don't want to feel what they're feeling. if you want to ask me why, come on --ask me WHY. i won't mind.

i think i'll be blogging again tomorrow same time -so i have to go sleep now. :)

gloomy day, gloomy me.

Sunday, June 06, 2010

naranasan mo na bang mapagod...


wala namng rason, wala namang dahilan. basta pagod ka lang.

auction galore

Thursday, May 13, 2010

sharky bids

lately i find myself browsing through auction sites for some good --yet cheap-- deals. and then i found out about SHARKYBIDS and I want to try how it works. I found out some good items and if it really works, I might start purchasing and even become the top auctioneer from the Philippines :D Bidding is so easy and the website is user-friendly, I actually plan on telling my sister about this, she's one of those who stay up late to watch some items go on the last minute and then she starts bidding! :D


I will post again soon and tell you more!

friends and grey's

Saturday, May 08, 2010

airplane

i have 137 friends and it makes me sad :( i was browsing through my friend's list and i didn't know where to start deleting...


i just don't want to be like one of those people who has, like, 200 friends --half of which she hasn't even met. and you call it friends list??

i mean, i don't want to miss out on the rants and ramblings of the people who matter to me posts about, and in facebook, you will be opening a feed crowded by people you don't even know, because they were on your list.

i know. i have these lists: acquaintances, bahrain friends, church family, kins and clans, formers and interests. i know i can just click on my list so their feed will be loaded on my page, BUT still ---can't i just open my homepage and see what i want to see?

and besides, you will be opening your page to those people --or i mean, I will be opening MY page to those people i haven't even met?... i know people who are judgmental, they tend to judge on others' post or comment, or page. and i'm not fond of being judged by people who haven't even met me. i don't care about what they say, i just don't want to give them the chance.

and if you are reading this... do not talk to me about my blog. it embarrasses me. seriously. there was this one time (at band camp --jk) when somebody mentioned my blog to me, and we aren't even friends. i know him and yet him talking to me about my rants here, is really not a thing i would want to stay for a chat with.

so, today i went halfway season 2 of grey's anatomy (for the 5th time i guess) it started last week when i didn't have much to do in the house. because i finished all the other things i had to. and now, i'm super bored. because i got up to eat and don't feel like going back to bed to watch again.

i took off the jalousies of the bedroom window and i saw the stars (*smiley here*) i missed them when i was in Bahrain. and i saw a distant airplane. and i was nostalgic. i thought i was back in BH and the loneliness just engulfed me, i really thought I was back in BH! because those are the kinds of plane i would see from the car on the way home. they are that far away that i had to drive around the airport, which is on a separate island, just to see them close. my friend, jonathan, would ask why. of course, he was wondering why... and i just told him i needed to check if they were okay, coz they were my link to the Philippines, they would take me back home. he just knew airplanes mean a lot to me.

so even here, in the phils., i still see planes like a vessel of hope :) i already mentioned one time that one of my friends caught me staring pensively at an airplane passing by. i'm just really wondering if the passengers inside are happy, coz they were traveling, or are going to meet someone special on their destination. or sad, because they have been taken away from their home.

so... grey's infected me. meredith said... in the absence of hope, i need to stay in bed and feel like i might die today. which brings me back to -- me being rejected!

who --in their right mind-- would apply in a call center with a hoarse voice?... of course, i didn't apply. they re-scheduled me for an interview which i didn't show up on months ago. i didn't know there was gonna be a voice/speech recognition exam. i heard my own voice on the headset --it sounded like someone was gasping for air! so it went until the interview, and i forgot to mention, i had so much use of my voice last week, it was on short supply this week. i was so confident! grrrr!

so they called me --and said "hey, guess what? you aced the exams, you got high scores on the computer simulation, and english literacy, and your typing skill's above average, but you just don't have a clear voice. sorry, try again after three months."

which got me singing --it's my first broken heart... my dreams have dimmed and ended, it's my first broken heart... i don't know how to mend it, tell me where do i start?...

what to do. send me a message and tell me what to do! don't post on my page, i WILL kill you.

dear john...

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

books

the problem with novels made into movies, is that they're most of the time disappointing.


like, that was not what was on the book! there was something missing! that was not how it ended??

but, okay, they made it into a movie already, like I can change anything??

so, i thought. maybe Fantastic Mr. Fox can lighten me up. yup, it sure did. i felt like i was 4 years old, and i didn't even ask for it?! it was... oh my gosh. unbelievably for little kids.

oh my gosh.

so, i got nothing to do, so i thought i could use some scrubbing. on me-self.

i just had a full body scrub not more than 3 days ago, and i thought it might do some damage if i do it again too soon. but i really need it so bad after all the dirt and dust i collected for my body. and for the record, i did it again tonight. poor skin... poor feet... poor me.

earlier today i asked my best friend if i was poor. she then mentioned all the things i have... so, okay, i am not poor --i'm whimsical. a whole lot of difference. makes sense.

gotta visit FB before i doze off... i'm really tired. and really sleepy.


Talk About Timing...

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

books

THE GREATEST ADVICE
-Rick Warren, the Purpose Driven Life


(something for me to read again.. and again...)

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.
Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.

Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate!

Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr./Ms. Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr./Ms. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.Start a new career.

Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nastie habits, and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.
Love Deeply.Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you.You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.

It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.
DON'T LOSE FAITH IN GOD.Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!
GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!

she-devil!

Sunday, March 07, 2010

movie

finally got a hold of it! i found it yesterday at market, on sale!


i always have blog posts on my mind -- but when i'm finally in blogger, i've nothing to say.

that was it.

bugger

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

Bahrain

my youngest brother is watching Harry Potter -- very loudly. i can't even hear my own thoughts!


so i have to think LOUD. literally. (*grr*)

we had an American visitor for our Sunday service, and there was one thing he said that had me wishing it were true. he said, if only the trees and the rocks can speak, they would tell us lots of stories...

because i always miss bro. Grant, and i always find myself wishing he was here, just so i could talk to him. back in Bahrain, i always stash a box of jelly beans in my bag. bro. Grant used to give me lots of them when i was a child. so it's like keeping his memory in my bag every time.

up until now, i find myself being struck by the fact that i am in the Philippines. i am so grateful to be here. i don't really love the traffic, the dust, the buses, the unethical drivers, the heat, commuting, the noise, and unemployment, but i definitely love waking to see the Philippine sky, the clouds, the church, our compound, my grands, my family, my bed (most especially!), my church family, my best friend, and Jollibee. plus the gravy. the latter is incomparable as the former is inevitable, so i just have to deal with all of it.

last sunday night, i got to watch It's Complicated. and i loved Meryl Streep all over again. she's just so good, and so natural. she's really a legend, according to some articles i've read. it's just sad, how the movie went. coming from a broken family myself, i hoped they gave it another chance. i watched it thrice already, but i don't finish it most of the time because it's sad. and i don't really like Steve Martin for her, coz i see him as comical as he portrays that on most of his movies i've seen.

"a baby? reall-ly jake?" i liked that line.

ang pusa... bow

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

once upon a time, may isang babae. nagffacebook. tapos narinig nya si charice pempengco kumakanta sa kapitbahay. bigla syang natuwa, at tumakbo papunta sa bahay ng kapitbahay. sa kanyang pagmamadali, nagulat ang isang pusa at umakmang tatakbo. at nag-krus ang kanilang landas...


babae: si chariice!!!
pusa: meow! ... oouuuuchhh!!!

OUCH?! e ikaw nga ang nangagat?!

at magmula noon, tuwing ikatlong araw, lagi nang pumupunta ang babae sa doctor. para magpaturok ng mahal ng anti-rabies... waaaah.

the end.

waha korni. goodnight.

p.s. i like my blog header. feeling ko kse malapit na akong mamatay kaya gumagawa na ako ng tarpaulin. haha. next kasi yung music compilation. yeah

acknowledgment

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

birthday

for my 26th birthday, i would like to sincerely thank the following:::


  • grace, my friend since as far as i could remember, and the best by far. thanks for the cake!
  • my text mates who greeted me come 12 am of january 4th =)
  • my mommy, who cooked salty spaghetti. even though you really had to get me out 3 days after new year's day... hehe.
  • my grandparents -- for being there. and for being so demanding!
  • my pasaway brothers, for the cake and ice cream! =)
  • to my sister, who really had to get a flight back on my birthday. (trying so hard to live up to her name) thanks for being here anyway, and for being my sister.
  • to my church family, to my pastor and my monster mom-out-law.
  • to pogz who's so patient texting me, who asked if he could give a card and i waited -- and still waiting.
  • to rizza v. (vuang) thanks for always making me laugh.
  • to all my ta-tee's
  • to jonathan, my best friend in bahrain
  • to all my facebook friends --- even though most of them i'm not well acquainted with yet they still greeted me.
  • to naj, the sole greeter on friendster!
  • to my crush (-es)
  • to everyone who greeted me. it was sort of a way to remind me it really was my birthday. thanks. thanks...
  • thanks to Jollibee for the breakfast joy =)
and most especially...

thanks for the nice sun shine on my face that day. and the cool wind around. thanks for the people around me. thanks for the laugh we shared til night time. thanks for the love i felt all throughout that day. and the little drizzle i felt that morning. thank so much for letting me see january 4. i couldn't express all my appreciation in words, but i really want to say thank You. for loving me, and never leaving me... thank You Lord...

1st of 2010

Friday, January 01, 2010

christmas

happy new year! ^_^


the holidays went by so quickly. it seems like everyone was on a vacation --- my sister, my grannies, everyone i know, save for me. i got so busy that my grandma went asking for me already because i haven't paid them a visit for days!

anyway, i think i'm gonna have flu.

last night, i welcomed the new year at my mom's house. first time with my sister and Jared in the Philippines after so many years. and with my grannies again. after spending it last year abroad, i really savoured every minute of it. and the children's christmas party i organized a little earlier was a blast too. even though the number was lesser than the last one's, it was OKAY because it lessened the pressure on me.

so that's it. just trying to post on january first, 3 days before i turn 26, at 11 pm. but it says here it's 6 pm, because i'm using my sister's mac. bh time. ^_^