i'm listening to Christmas songs while the Christmas lights are on, this is how I remind myself that it IS almost christmas.

i like Christmas, but there is always something sad about it. happy and sad, as always. exciting coz it's the time of gift-giving and seeing people we know. (or knew) and i never have figured out what's sad on that.

maybe... (it just occured now) maybe... because i never experienced having christmas with my family. meaning, my mother and father together with my sibs. yeah, maybe that's why...

and so i'm offering the simple phrase... (background music)

but i love organizing children's christmas party. i like seeing them happy and the fact that they don't have to go to my house come christmas day to ask for gift or anything since i have distributed them already, equally. :D well, there is more to those who won.

i just want to make a blog note of one client, by the way... she's keeping her son's account with us, not changing anything, saying she's willing to pay for the plan as long as she lives, just to be able to hear her son's voice mail greeting, as he has already passed away. sad but really touching.

that's all for now i guess... time to get the medicine. i am planning to watch movies all day.

IF... ;)

the holidays went by so quickly. it seems like everyone was on a vacation --- my sister, my grannies, everyone i know, save for me. i got so busy that my grandma went asking for me already because i haven't paid them a visit for days!

anyway, i think i'm gonna have flu.

last night, i welcomed the new year at my mom's house. first time with my sister and Jared in the Philippines after so many years. and with my grannies again. after spending it last year abroad, i really savoured every minute of it. and the children's christmas party i organized a little earlier was a blast too. even though the number was lesser than the last one's, it was OKAY because it lessened the pressure on me.

so that's it. just trying to post on january first, 3 days before i turn 26, at 11 pm. but it says here it's 6 pm, because i'm using my sister's mac. bh time. ^_^

i'm happy coz my grannies are here.

i'm happy coz i finished my christmas tree.

i'm happy coz all of us went strolling to Luneta tonight.

i'm happy coz i don't have any grudges.

i'm happy coz my sister mentioned in her blog that i know everyone.

i'm happy coz it's gonna be christmas.

but...

i'm sad coz the first 12 minutes of the animated movie UP made me cry. first. 12. minutes.

i'm sad coz i still hurt. (yes, may pakiramdam po ako)

i'm sad coz i got hungry tonight, and my feet swell.

i'm sad coz i'm alone.

and i'm sad coz it's gonna be christmas.

there's really something about christmas that makes me happy and sad all at the same time. i'm gonna find that out. gotta sleep now!

what the freakin' fruits happened to my blog???