i've been dying to change my blog's skin for so long yet i can't find the time, and i'd also get sentimental because it would mean saying goodbye to this pink page forever! i mean, i would never dare use this again if i plan to change this, right? it's really cute and i really spent a lot of time and effort doing this. and maybe that's also the reason why i can't come to changing this. i don't have time, and more time to have that "effort".

yesterday, it started to rain. they said that it was the first rain of may which signifies the beginning of the rainy season. *goody* i'm really excited for the rainy season... there are a lot of reasons. one would be the change in wardrobe.(except for the skirt, teehee.)

if i were to rate my summer this year, so far, it'd be at (uhm, from 1-10, 1 being the lowest..) *drum rolls* S-E-V-E-N. not bad, for me. but not yet satisfying. but i'm ok with that. so far.

i've to do something else.

april 20. it’s two thirty a.m. and i just finished watching A Prairie Home Companion. i skipped watching it, for like, hundreds of times because it was so boring, or so i thought.
maybe it was a bit boring at the beginning, but as the show goes, you will find the whole essence of the movie. the whole musical thing is nicely done too, and i started to like Meryl Streep, though i liked her before in her movie Falling in Love. she has a nice voice, and their “band” is truly captivating, if you’re as sentimental as i am. it’s more of contemporary, country, i’m-not-sure-what-it-is. boring, but nicely done.
i cried over one part, when a colleague died. it was so lonely. i think the whole movie was to make people realize that time is of the essence. everything comes to an end. people like the johnson sister’s mom, the old man, and also their radio show. and the movie itself. i almost didn’t want the singing to end, but it has to. like everything else.
i remember telling jade just this afternoon, how lonely the trees seem to sway as the sun’s rays fall on them one sunday afternoon, when usually i’d feel happy and grateful to hear the birds and see the sky, the trees and feel the wind. but it was really different that time. later i found out that lola grant just passed away. the next sunday i didn’t want to look outside.
but then it happened again. but i was in the kitchen this time and i looked outside and felt it again. i saw the loneliness in the swaying of the leaves, in the glitter of the sun. everything seemed lonely. days later, my high school teacher left. it was all so sudden. she got unconscious, they took her to the hospital, she was declared brain dead, the next morning, she’s gone. this is what i get from watching sad movies. finding the significance of it to my life. but quoting from a line in the movie i just watched, forgive the shortcomings. thank them for the love and care. and i suggest you cry. cry a lot.

well what do you know... 24 hours after i wrote my latest post, something happened that triggered us to completely move out of the house! finally...

so now, we are in our new house, apartment rather. it's small, not so decnt but it's bliss, just to know that we don't live with some... well, i'd rather not mention nasty descriptions.

so i'm in a new house, and a new job. we moved out of the house just a day after i got my things from my former job. it wasn't as drmatic as i imagined it'd be, because i have been absent for six days. that's 3 days in, 2 days out, and 3 days in. 2 over 8. my bosses were furious. being the 2nd top agent on my first month, and climbing to the top agent position on the next months til now, i gathered some respect though. so now the expectations are high on my new job.

i have to start earning for summer so i better do my job. yes, i still have work to do at this time. so beybey... (...that's quoting from hema)